I'm bitter, I'm angry.. I'm sick of your stupid lame preachy crap and what can i do.. nothing! Also I smashed my car. I had one thought, one person on my mind as i was spinning around and I hated it! Hated it! stupid cars! I'm in pain, so what did i do to solve my problems last night.. haha DRINK! and i am still drunk. so sleep for me it is!

It's always easier to get in then it is to get out..
And people assume its somewhere I want to be..
I just can't get out.

b.

I had a great time last night!

Life is Grand!
Im coming into a decent amount of money and what am I going to do with it?.. anything I want!! Hahaha
Ok Im much to pumped about this..

And I feel good.. great actually.

Resumes are out.. Im back on track. My car will be fixed and my debts are gone.

All weight has been lifted!

I need to stop drinking though side note!..

... It sucks that there's always going to be something just a little more important. But hey I'm a big girl, I'll just pretend everything away..

I found a sock in my car.. an old man sock hanging on my rear view mirror. It wasn't there when I got out of my car and I'm fairly certain that my doors were locked. It's a mystery.. or maybe an omen. What does sock on rear view mirror mean? Hmmm..

Sucky day!

Apparently I spoke to soon in my last entry.. today is not a good day!

I am officially homeless.

I am at the college and Im trapped because the fucking traffic is backed up to Beaconhill and I cant go home because I wont make it back downtown in time to see Harry Potter and then my life as I know it will be over. So I wait!

Anyways.. i was unaware that Harry potter came out yesterday which is a bit hurtful.. however I shall go on!

Perhaps I should be doing my resume right now but Im far to hot (as in sweaty) to do so. Im much to retarded to do it today anyways!

However despite the fact that I am extremely lazy today.. I am overwhelmingly pleased with myself. Its a good day all in all!

I don't actually have anything to report so..

Good Day.

Well well.. I like Lemon Meringue pie. Not so much the meringue, they should just use whipped cream. Yes, much better!

At any rate.. I am no longer moving! Fuck yes!

As well I found my birth certificate so I'm happy. I shall finally have ID again!

Thats all!

.I want my fucking life back

I need to find a place to live by July 10..
And I still have no job.

Sweet.. Just the motivation I needed.

When did I stop having fun?

New job for me, not that I'm looking yet. Ha! oh no, but as I am no longer superstore's bitch I will eventually be forced to find one. Sigh.

What are Livejournal dollars? It's been too long I need a computer.

I am so tired...
Goodnight.

Ummm?.. Ok on my way home as I was crossing the street, I was standing in the middle on the median waiting for a car to pass and as it passed the girl in the car honked her horn.. I'm pretty sure she just thought she was funny and wanted to give me a heart attack..so I gave her the finger. Thinking about it now, probably dumb, however it was done and the girl got out of the car yelling at me, I was in the esso parking lot, and I stood there not sure what to do and she went to hit me and I kinda dodged it(really though I just about fell) the only reason I didn't was because she grabbed my purse and was trying to take it I guess, and I punched her.. it's the first fight of my life..I don't think it really hurt her but her friend yelled " Fuck this.." and the chick called me a bitch and left... and now I can't sleep because..did that really just fucking happen? I hit someone..and it was really scary.

I need a coffee.

Ok I don't know if I'm the only one that agrees with Amy here but where the hell was the Halloween snow.. Late! It snowed this morning, I miss Halloween snow.

As well I will be moving out at the end of November anyone looking for a roommate or knows of someone who is..Let me know..Please.

Ok and now to the reason I decided to make an entry today..a story. This morning I woke up to the phone ringing so I dragged my ass outta bed and ended up missing the call anyways. It was(My roommate)Jamie's mom so I figured she'd call back, and because I was already up I decided to jump in the shower and get ready for work. After I shower I'm brushing my teeth and someones buzzing to get in, so I run and buzz them in unlock the door because Jamie and Dillon never wake up to the buzzer so I figure Jamie's mom can just walk in and wake them up herself so I don't have to deal with their wrath. So I get into my room and just as I'm about to get dressed I heard a knock and what I thought was Dillon saying something so I wrap my towel around myself and walk out of my room and there's this old fat man standing in my kitchen with the fridge open and he was loaded. So I kinda just pause and this other person kinda pops around the corner, turns out its the guys from downstairs they had the wrong apartment and I'm standing there in my towel and he's just staring, not subtle in anyway. So it takes them a second to realize what happened and the guy still staring kinda mumbles "uuuhhh..so do you want us to leave?" I thought that was great, so finally I convinced them that would probably be a good idea and just as they're almost out the door the fat one comes back in opens the fridge, grabs two beer and walks out..It was a grand morning.

Oh and turns out I wasn't supposed to work today.. So I had McDonald's breakfast. I enjoyed it.

Ciao..

Write a journal entry for this meme with six random facts about yourself.
Then pick six off your friends list and tag them - no tag backs.
These rules should be included in your entry.

1. Everytime I watch Brother Bear I cry.
2. I was sent to collections because I owed thirty dollars to the Library and the book I took out was on curling.
3. The first Cd I ever bought was Big Shiny Tunes 5 and I was 16..I bought it because I liked that Allstar song by Smashmouth.
4. I hate moths so much that I have nightmares about them.
5. If I had a choice to do whatever 9 times outta 10 I'd probably choose hanging out at the garden.
6. I found my first split end the other day and I almost cried. I think I was hormonal

Ok, it's been forever since the last time I updated... this is probably because I lack the motivation to do so..

Syd that's just Grand I'm happy for you, you too Sebastien

Due to the fact that work has basically engulfed my life I haven't done anything other than hang out at the Garden and home lately however..I started reading this book called The Bitch Posse which I purchased because I wanted a tweener book that involved no thought and might provide a few laughs... I however assumed this is what the book would be like based completely on the title..Wrong!

The book opens to a sex scene...in which the first character you meet tells you..well she thinking this but onward.. how this red jar, which the author has already brought up a few times, is filled with her and her former friends blood it doesn't go into detail on this yet it just explains that the night they filled the jar went horribly wrong...ok so back to the sex scene, since that Jar night( 10 years earlier ) this woman now enjoys being cut as she has sex.. and the first few paragraphs are just sex and cutting.. anywho it caught my attention if anything and I'm going to continue reading it to see where this goes..

That's all I've really got so...

Later.

Why?
It's the first time I've ever truly been this dissapointed in myself...
I hate the feeling.

Happy Birthday Hagan! (So far no news on you getting kicked out again...)




And Jamie..your strong and technically you only have to be strong enough to knock on my door..anytime!

So today out of sheer curiosity I looked up the meaning of my name and I was slightly disapointed in my parents...

Rebecca - From the Hebrew Rebekah meaning; a noose.

Ok so it's not quite that simple it's actually symbolism for Captivating.. but really the literal meaning of my name is a Noose!

Well at any rate in all actuality I was named after my Grandmother..so the question is, What were her parents thinking?

Step 1: Find out who the culprit is..
Step 2: Find out where the culprit lives..
Step 3: Pour salt in gas tank..
Step 4: Laugh heartily..

Alright jumping on the band wagon -

Uncomfortable survey: This survey is gonna probably make you uncomfortable, but if you do it...answer honestly!!!


Then repost so others can do it. It is actually worth while, one all about love, relationships, and all things like that, that most people wont ask.


-Longest relationship: One month

-Shortest relationship: 6 days

-How many people have you broken up with? Five

-How many times have you truly been in love? Never

-How many boyfriends/girlfriends have told you that they love you? Three

-Have you ever thought that you were going to marry the person you were with? Never

-Have you ever loved someone so much that it hurt? I've liked someone so much it hurt..

-Have you ever made a boyfriend or girlfriend cry? Yes..I don't like it one bit..

-Are you happy being single or in relationship? Currently the way things are going...SINGLE!

-Have you ever cheated on a boyfriend or girlfriend? Never will..

-Have you ever been cheated on? I think maybe..

-What is the important PART of being in a relationship?
Having fun..Laughing at the stupid shit

-What is the worst part of being in a relationship? Jealousy..if it's uncalled for.

-Worst relationship?
So this one time my car took a beating for me right..I love you girl.

-Have you ever had your heart broken? I don't think broken but definitely bruised..

-Have you ever broken someones heart? I think it's possible and it's not easy to live with..

-Do you talk to any of your exes? Just one..

-If you could go back in time and change things to where you could still be with one of your exes, would you? No I don't think so..

-Do you think any of your exes feel the same way? Feel like they would still be with be?.. yeah ..

-What is your ideal boyfriend or girlfriend? Someone who's laid back, and that I can have fun with and who isn't into jumping in to relationships like it's some sort of race..Not to mention he has to be able to handle the Garden!

-Do you believe that you are a good boyfriend or girlfriend? I don't know it doesn't seem like it..well lately anyways..

-Have you dated people who were not good to you? No at the time they were all pretty good to me..

-Name your most memorable ex if you have had 1: Adam.. we definitely had the most fun!

-Have you dated someone older then you? Yes

-Younger? Nope.

-What do all of your exes have in common? Laura!..Haha I'm kidding..ummm at one point or another they all made me feel confident in something I may have doubted about myself..

-Say, who are the top two most attractive ex that you have dated? Adam Elayne and Chad Reid..

-Have you ever cried yourself to sleep over a boyfriend or girlfriend? No..I've wanted to though.. it may have helped..

-When is the last time that you were in a serious relationship? I guess three years ago.. the most serious relationship I've been in anyways..

-Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? No.

-Believe in love at first sight? Love..no, Serious Like.. maybe.

-Ever dated two people at once? No..

-Ever been given a promise ring? Nope

-Ever been given an Engagement ring? God No!

-Do you want to get married? Eventually..I think?

-Do you have something to say to any of your exes? Did you have to take it out on my car? What did she ever do to you?

-Ever stolen someones boyfriend or girlfriend? Stolen?..Not technically

-Ever liked someone elses boyfriend or girlfriend? *Cough* David..What!?!

-Do you believe in true love? I don't know I believe you can genuinely love someone, but I also believe you can fall out of love...

-Does heartbreak really feel as bad as it sounds? Yup..

Well that was interesting.. A weight has been lifted, actually not really but time has gone by..just as good?

And I'm done tonight so..

Sayonara..

Happy
Birthday
Syd!